Tuesday, March 31, 2009

update..

it has been so long since i update.. i update soon k..
but for now..
if u read this blog.. just to tell you that ur hubby is broken hearted.. really broken hearted..

ps. i need both of you now.. you know who you are..

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Wednesday, January 21, 2009

...

ever lost your ez-card before.. well, i did.. thrice.. the most recent one, which is on wednesday, is the worst one.. i was on the escalator, took out my card and guess what.. it slipped out of my hand and went straight underneath the escalator.. great huh.. now i have to use my mum's card.. hurh, adult fare sucks..

and today was a.math test and revision test.. another sucky thing not to look forward to.. but i still have to take it right.. so studied like a mad dog with dearest.. kudos to her for explaining to this guy from scratch.. and i managed to get most of the stuff into my head.. so did both test just now.. i hope to pass the subject.. i dunno.. lets ust hope k.. and tomorrow im meeting dearest.. weehoo..

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Monday, January 19, 2009

today..

well today was awesome.. woke up as per normal but one thing for sure is that i dont have to rush to get ready as school starts at 9.30am.. how cool is that.. for the first tyme in my whole four years in VS, im eating breakfast with my mum.. hee.. went out at arnd 7.30am to reach school super early.. as expected, reach there at 8.30am and went to the gallery to watch the floorball-ers trng.. did karangan too.. taufik came along soon after and when the bell rang.. school starts as per normal..

after school, headed to kallang area.. near ehkemehkem school to wait for dearest to finish school and help me study a.maths cause there is a revision test this wed.. haiz, chance of passing is quite slim.. but i just try.. sent her home after that and here i am.. will be meeting her again tomorrow.. hee..

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Saturday, January 17, 2009

Happy 9th Anniversary to my baby nurulhuda (:

Hee.. hubby dh letak gambar dah kat blog.. hee.. anyway syg, i want to wish u a very happy 9th month anniversary to you.. although we had shortage of time when we were celebrating it yesterday, it was worth it.. worth more than i can say it.. even though there was no big celebration yesterday, the simple yet sweet ice cream that u treated me was just as romantic as the past ones that we had.. and i thank you soo much for the time and the ice cream.. i still remember the time when i first became yours.. the joy that filled my heart and the big smile was very memorable.. when i hugged you and you felt my heartbeat, good memories kan.. hee, i agree.. and it has been nine months from that day.. ninth months of ups and down with you.. the happiness, sadness, anger, love, care and many more filled our relationship.. and we came out closer and closer to each other..

i know this month has been pretty tough for both of us with all the external distractions coming in between us.. with people leaving either one of us, and new people came in.. with all the expectations from our parents to focused with our studies and many more.. one thing i learned from this is that you never give up on us.. when pain strike your heart, you are always strong enough to go through it.. strong enough to pick yourself up and start walking again and i admire you for that.. and that is what makes you extra special..

my life totally changed when im with you.. i guess everyone change when you have someone to love and you being loved.. yeahh, i changed syg.. to be more caring to you, to understand you better, to always be there for you, make you smile all the time.. to be your escape from all your sorrows, be the first one you think about when you wake up and more.. all this to make you feel special.. to show you that you are important to me.. and i know at the end of the day, you will sleep thinking of me.. and hoping that you smile to sleep.. and the cycle goes on till forever..

lastly syg.. i want to thank you for everything that you have done since day 1.. thank you soo much k syg.. i really appreciate what you have done.. from giving me the love and care to listening to me when i ask you too sleep..for taking in my crappiness at times and joining me to become one too.. for all that and more, i want to say thank you.. this may sound cliche but i love you syg.. i really do.. even with others against us, i will still love you.. i promise you that.. without fail, you will always be on mine.. worrying about you when im not there with you will always happen.. all this because i love you nurulhuda (: not to forget you little cutie nurul nadiyah.. i didnt miss you out..

whatever you need, girl..

it's all on me..

soldier, your friend or your lover, girl..

I wanna be... Yours..

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Friday, January 16, 2009

When you know you are being outcast, the best thing to do is ignore them and lead you own life.. that is the way it goes..

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Thursday, January 8, 2009

to you..

To You..

Even if the whole world was against us.. even if everybody wants us apart.. till the end of my last breath, i wont let go of you.. you're too important in my life to let go.. and in times like this, its where our love will be put to the test.. and i will stay strong and keep fighting till the end.. and this is because of my love for you.. i know i hurt you and put you in a very difficult situation.. im sorry.. but only if you could hang on just a little while longer.. for the sake of us.. we could be like normal and everything will be fine.. and to tell you the truth.. i prefer not to take a break.. but if u want to then i will respect ur decision.. take care syg and i love you..

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Sunday, January 4, 2009

it's been tough dealing with the new school life.. with all the huhas abt 'o' levels coming up.. but nvm, put that all aside.. the reason for me posting this post is to just let go.. so if you dunt want to read then its okayy.. =)

so yeahh.. its been so long i blurted out the truth to anyone.. and i cant hold on much longer so heck.. well, firstly.. it hurts to keep things to yourself and the events around you keep happening.. it hurts when you cant do anything abt it.. and to make it worse, there is no one to talk to abt this.. haiz.. if only the people understands what i wanted to say.. the least is that i wont have to worry all day abt it.. seeing your loved ones slowly and un-noticeble-ly fading away or just avoiding it.. i have been keeping lots of things in my mind to make people happy but when it gets worse.. i have to do something right.. i tried to talk but the words just didn't flow out.. i prefer to keep quiet and let the sufferings eat me inside.. on the outside, i will act as if nothing happened.. i hope the people understand and respect me for who i am.. and most important, i hope you can hear my inner voice.. slowly i will reveal it.. but till now.. my insides are eaten up and theres not much left..

even when i tried to take action.. one party will be hurt.. i rather me getting hurt and not others.. thats me.. haiz.. this sucks.. im done now.. not too much info for everyone.. and to her.. you know what im talking abt and you know what to do.. till then, take care..

hold me now at Sunday, January 04, 2009
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